Just as Peter began to step out of the boat, he had to keep himself focused on Christ otherwise he would not be able to walk on the water. I am stepping out of the "boat" from a safe confortable situation taking a risk that all others believe may be a improbable as walking on water. Like Peter, I need to remain focused...that is what I am doing and plan to continue to do!
In a few days, I will be literally "homeless," that alone, would trouble most people, Of course that is usually a result of major disaster, financial loss, natural disaster, or something of the like. While most people wouldn't choose to be in this position, it is all together different if one is doing it in obedience to God's calling on her (his) life. With that in mind...that may be why I am not freaked out about it! It actually find it quite liberating!
The sale went well, although far from having a comfortable financial situation (in my opinion) especially with health insurance costs soaring...that too is in God's hand!
It was far more fun giving the rest away over the next couple of days. After all, my things are just things...while they maybe be remembrances of good times past, they remain things...the memories are stored in my mind! As I repack anticipating shipment in a while, I am determined to rid myself of more of the frivalous objects. I find that it is easier to get to the next step one day at a time!
Post surgical limitations have made packing interesting...having to ask more of others (not easy for me--or anyone else for that matter)! I am learning to take it one day at a time and not beat myself up for not accomplishing more. I feel like this venture has turned into a new "job" which in a sense actually is just that!
I am often asked what I will be doing or where I will be going. Ironically, I still feel that it will be in Toulouse, France although not with the mission agency as I had thought. My Barnabas prayers warriors along with other friends have the impression that I will be going as a tentmaker...just how, I am not sure. My goal is to continue to remain in God's will no matter the cost. I am willing to do anything or go any where. I agree that the call to missions seems to be rather urgent sooner rather than later. So, I am looking into options to see what I may find. Unfortunately, with France there is a catch 22 situation. One needs a job to get a visa or have a visa to get a job. In the past, God has orchestrated fantastic situations--where others had told me that what I was pursuing was impossible! With God all things ARE POSSIBLE! I totally believe that! Of course that does not mean that I am to sit back and twiddle my thumbs!
There are a few loose ends that need to tied up prior to a permanent departure...either those things or the lack of a proper visa may necessitate taking a shorter-term mission or visionary trip. If that is the case, I am hoping to spend about 3 months exploring various options. I have often experienced that it is more about who you know over what you know...this is expecially true in France. While I have many connections and dear friends...none (well-one acquaintaince) in Toulouse--the saying holds true to our faith in Christ. There isn't any relationship that I rely more on that that with my savior! I find that as I get to know him better, the more I realize that he is not passive, he is not my "co"-pilot, he is my PILOT! He is totally in control of me life! I see his hand in so many aspects of my life even the small things! I appreciate the prayers of all you saints who pray for me!
My future is in God's hands...I am comfortable with that! As for that, you will have to be patient to see what God is doing in my life! I will keep you posted with as much of the details as possible!
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